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A lot of transition is happening. But, I feel like a lot of transition is happening frequently for me. Right now, I am facing the somewhat daunting task of settling into my future. As I continue on my journey to be like God, who am I today, tomorrow, and in eternity? I know, it’s deep. The rest of my life starts now and I’m trying to figure out what that means. I’ve been chasing love. I like that shit. I’m a little or a lot a bit toxic. But more than that I am seeking arousal. Turn me on. Life is a partnership, whatever kind and however many different kinds there may be.
This connects with a larger point that I have been talking about as well, and that’s being properly incentivized. I’m not in a place where I want be performative for the sake of being performative. I’ve learned a new terminology for this, “dead works.” Doing my best to describe my understanding, dead works is just doing shit of no value. Life can easily get you caught up in doing things that are ultimately of no significance either objectively or subjectively. I have found that to be especially true for me recently.
As I consider the future I understand that who I am will be more important than what I do. However, while that is happening my professional profile is rising as well. I don’t particularly care how much my personal and professional life seemingly diverge but there has to be some equilibrium. One of my worries as I seek post-grad is my perceived lack of the corporate equivalent to junior and senior level experience. I understand the long list of reasons as to why that is, but I feel like now is the time to prepare for that.
I’m skipping ahead though. I skip ahead because what I do now could impact that. Also what’s present is more private. But yeah, the rest of the (my) world needs to get its act together and start putting in some effort. Turn me on. Get me hard. I’ve shucked, I’ve jived, I’ve hummed, I’ve swayed. The proof is in the putting, the putting is in the taste, and it turns out I know how to make good putting. I’ve paid my dues. I know people who have done less who are probably way further ahead than me in some respects.
I don’t care about that, I wish all people well. I’m content but not satisfied at this current moment. While at the same time seemingly experiencing the law of diminishing returns. Something is broken and it isn’t me because I’m ready to go. I have a well of opportunity I can personally tap, but here comes those dead works again. The works are dead because I’m not getting “anything” for doing them. Which begs the question, why do them?
So, there’s your peek into what’s pre-occupying my time at the moment. That bright future that people often talk about is here now. I’m going to make something of mine because I want to enjoy and appreciate being alive. Ultimately, that’s what we are here for to be alive and create more life. This new era in my life starts now.
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